内容简介：
Noel Havelock, a British officer serving in the Indian Army in 1905 has everythingaand nothing. His wealth, social status, good looks and vigor are no comfort to him as he is tortured by demons leftover from his abuse at school. The friendship of a fellow officer, Tommy Farmer, is more an affliction than succor as Noel is ashamed of the feelings he conceals from Tommy. Deliverance seems at hand when Noel falls in love with Penny Owen, an unconventional missionary girl. But does Penny practice the forgiveness that she preaches? Noelas search for fulfillment takes him from a prostituteas arms to the depths of addiction then to a suicidal battle with mountain bandits. Noelas story culminates in Mesopotamia during World War I when he must again face the horrors he knew as a child. His battle against cutthroat Ottoman troops will reveal what kind of man Noel has become.